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Chasing pavements / December 16, 2011

Listening to: Chasing Pavements by Adele

I keep procrastinating on that application form because I know once I start, things start falling into place. Things that I have repeated, so many times, will cease to be a fantasy anymore. It's like unlocking a dream trapped in a cage, not knowing if it's going to stay.

I thought that if I keep repeating the same plans, with increasing conviction each time I do, I would be more confident in myself. I would be more confident of what I want, where my passions lie, how my future is going to be like. But truth is, I'm about as aimless as a headless chicken.

One thing I took away from the careers workshop was this- the reason why people are nervous during an interview is because something they care a lot about, is at stake.

As you step into that interview room, or hit the send button for that personal statement, everything becomes a forgone conclusion.

There are no undos or what ifs.

The probability becomes either 1 or 0.